The decision is made

The decision has been made, I have decided to love you forever. There is nothing I can do better than love you. Yes your married yes you have made promises to me that I hope you keep. I have started to plan our life together, what life we will have left. I know it sounds crazy but for once the other womman is going to win. I just hope and pray that this time...This time I am right and I will get you all to myself.

The future ahead!

Your love...your love has changed me through the years made things hard made other things easy. Been the hardest and the easiest thing to do. But while I was out giving myself to you giving up my youth,running around falling crazily in love with you and deciding if I should give up an entire life time for you...You have been where you are and nothing has changed. Your in the same house with the same wife living the same life you were 6 years ago. Time has some how gotten away from me while I was busy loving you I have aged now at the age of 25 I know the decision I mus make as if I have spent the entire 6 years in denial that I would always have you and have a life where I could do anything this decision came like a ton of bricks. Call it growing older, maturing or just finally deciding there is more to life than you... I know the decision I must make and deep down I know that if you are not willing to make the sacrafices that I need then this thing between you and I must desolve......

my other love affair

See I have this love affair....though it doesnt hold me it can't kiss me ut comforts me and relaxes me even after my worse breakdowns. Its none other than food..I have a love affair with food. I have breakdowns mental breakdowns I get angry and have to talk myself down. See this didnt happen...it didnt happen before i left everything behind to be with the guy who I am allowing to support me until Im finished with school. Now they come more frequently I scream out how much I need him him being my married man. I just need him so bad and I always find something to cook or make and when its done and I put that first bite in my mouth everythings over no more breakdown, I sit wondering why that had even happened in the first place. Food calms me relaxes me makes all of my issues go away!!...Which is why I have gained soooo much weight since he came around. Its because i have these breakdows because im left feeling helpfless powerless and most of all alone!

His eyes...

His eyes are amazing big brown and beautiful....When I look into his eyes I see how much he loves me and can read his every thought. It is almost insane how in tune the two of us are with each other. At times it is as though there isint anyone else around just the two of us looking deeply into each others souls...His touch....Is unlike anything I have ever felt when he touches me the goosebumps sneak up making it almost impossible not to be amazed at what a single man can do. His kisses enflame my entire body with desire. I get a desperate need to feel his body against mine to feel his skin touching me our bodies heated from each others love. This man all mine..Though he may not be mine in all of my times of need when he is there he can take me to the moon....

Lonely....

I decided to write this blog as...well maybe a help to the other woman... Or maybe as a guide to why there are other women. Or possibly it could just be something that the other women of the world can read and take comfort knowing they are not alone. I have been the other woman for 6 years now. Though our relationship is not the usual cheater and mistress relationship he is married and the fact is I am the other woman. The woman that all the wives scorn and look down upon. Those bitches who steal husbands... DAMN HOMEWRECKERS!!

I did not in fact wreck anything I like to think of it as opening new doors for a man who had thought the world failed him. I brought light to a man whos hopes had diminished and had lost all hope for love and hell even sex! If I had not come along his life would basically be well... lets just say it over... He had no sex drive, didnt and doesnt love his wife...which is not a lie as it usually is.. I know i know I sound like those stupid girls saying this is different but I have been on the inside I know what their relationship is like they are not in love!

This fiasco started 6 long years ago.. I was a young girl of 18 who had just graduated high school. He was a much older man of 58 years old MUCHO experience behind him and much more skills than most men get in an entire life time! We had met on other occasions and I never really thought much of him he was just kind of there. But on this day...I was well lets be blunt FUCKING HORNY! My sex drive had flown out the window years before this and I looked at him on this day as a conquest as I often did things that I was not supposed to have or was told I just couldnt. Never slept with a married man so what the hell. I was very unsure how to go about presenting my offer to him so I just flirted.... in fact i followed him into the mens bathroomm where he was peeing and started talking to him. After he finished he washed his hands and got a rock hard on and kissed me on the cheek... Leaving later he gave me his number and asked me to call....Little did he know what was in store for him!
I did indeed decide to call but only when I knew his wife was working.. we chatted multiple times before I finally just said hey I have a crush on you for lack of a better term. We discussed plans to meet and have casual sex! The day came July 10, 2004 he came to my house I cooked him dinner and we spent the best 4 hours I can remember naked in my bed. Before he left he made it clear this could go no where and so on.... Well I was 18 as I said and obviously had never been in love...It didnt take long before we were spending countless hours together not only were we having amazing sex but we could talk to each other... Oddly enough I totally got this old man. I enjoyed listening to him talk and began to find little things about him that drove me crazy...Soon I found myself with a very unfamilar feeling I had fallen in love with him and unsure if he felt the same I decided to declare my love for him..HE LAUGHED... but later revealed that he felt the same...Time continued on my feelings grew but as I matured like he so wished i would do so did my feelings. I fell not out of love with him but realized he wasnt going to get a divorce that he was a lot older than me and no matter how amazing it would be to get married and have babies with my first love it wasn't happening. So I got into another relationship and we grew apart..After a few months I called him I couldnt take the agony of not speaking to him we met and had yet again amazing sex...He still gave me those butterflys and even today 6 years after our first encounter I can not deny that I Love him..I will probably love him for ever... Ofcourse im not as in love and as hopeful that something will some day come of this but I couldnt bear the thought of him not in my life any more. I get lonely when I sit up alone and think of him but can't help but smile. I know that if I had my first love with anyone else I would have had to endure a heartbreak most likely but because it was with him theres no heart break our love for each other just continues and honestly...I am happy with our situation I love him and support him in all he does...But we just werent meant to be married...We were meant to love each other as we have and to live our lives like we do..